Rarely do I share videos on this blog. For most of my “sharing” takes place on Twitter and, within a few seconds, it’s gone from the timeline and you’re all on to something new. My logic, “who cares to see everything that interests me?” People like dipping in and out of Twitter and seeing something I link to but I link to a lot and sometimes, it’s fighting for your attention among a thousand other links shared each hour across social networking sites.
This video is worthy of a post.
you see, I haven’t really explained where i was this year between January and June. I haven’t uncovered where my mind was and what kept me occupied. After being single for the first time in nearly a decade and after living alone for the first time since I was born, it was difficult. i chose the path that would have the biggest impact on my life. I chose not to rebound, to attend therapy, to take up sports or join a club. I didn’t throw myself further into work or occupy myself with hours of television, drugs or alcohol abuse.
I was simply alone.
It was the most difficult path to take but, today, I share with you the good news that I’m absolutely okay with it. I look forward to coming home alone and eating alone and, when people surround me, they enhance my already fulfilled and complete life. When they leave, I clean up, read and go to bed.
This is a huge change from where i was at the start of the year. The video below is making its rounds across the Internet. I think it’s exceptional and perfect. I hope we’re all able to go through being alone and truly stomach the pain and unrest you have when your Saturday involves sitting on your back porch watching birds and cooking for one and, at midnight, laying alone in your bed that has pillows fluffed for two.
This video, if published in January, would have given me hope in that dark tunnel known as loneliness and I hope, for anyone out there feeling these emotions, that they can watch this video and have hope that, one day, you’ll be the lucky one for being able to enjoy dinner at a table for one because that’s how I feel after a long struggle of being alone for the first time.